What Does Loving Yourself Feel Like

Posted by Emily Ruyle on

What Does Loving Yourself Feel Like

It is no secret that women struggle with loving themselves, and honestly, you probably know all the reasons we could list.  

Instead, I want to focus on what it feels like to love yourself.  

The process of loving yourself is a journey, every day its working on turning off the negative thoughts, turning off the comparison engine, and looking at yourself with fresh eyes of approval.

I went through a lot of years of not loving anything about myself.  First of all, I am 6 feet tall, so I am large anyway, but I also always saw myself overweight and therefore un-self-lovable.

Here are a few things I would do that I didn't even notice I was doing to compensate for my lack of self-love:

1.  While on airplanes, I would try take up as little room as possible. I would keep my legs locked together and off to the side so the person next to me wouldn't feel like I was taking up too much room.  This, by the way, is very uncomfortable.

2. I would take FOR.EV.ER to get ready to leave the house to do anything.  I used make-up, hair, and my outfits to hopefully distract any strangers from seeing my large size.

3.  I would shrink in photos...this is still something I struggle a little with.  In January of this year we were in Miami Florida for Wodapalooza.  We had athletes come in and take pics and I remember trying to shrink my 6 foot frame down by bending over, being my legs, or sticking my butt to the back of the photo so the rest would look smaller.  It's madness...I know.   I looked back at the pictures and was sad that I didn't stand tall, proud of my strength, my height, my legs, butt, arms...etc...

I can see while writing this, that my self-dislike rooted from being concerned for acceptance from others as validation for being good enough. hmmmm 🧐

But now...

Its like I finally hit a point in my journey for self love that I am recognizing I am not doing those things above.  Things I didn't even know I was doing out of self-dislike until I had self-love.

I will not sit uncomfortably on a plane anymore.  My seat and leg room is mine.

I love make-up...but I wear way way way less and feel 100% comfortable to leave the house without it and hold my head high while out.

I will not shrink myself in photos any more. I am tall and muscly and I need to deal with it. LOL

What about you?  

Leave a comment below and share you journey, what self-love means to you, or anything else you feel like sharing ❤️

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